What on Earth was I Thinking?

Seriously…what on earth was I thinking?

I’ve wanted to run a marathon since I was 15 years old, and believe me when I tell you that this isn’t my first crack at the can.  I’ve run three half-marathons, with a personal best of 1 hr & 55 mins, and all were intended to ‘just’ be part of my training for a full marathon.

Well… life happened, as it always does, and I gave up on myself every time.  I’d have a bad run, or a period of time when I let everything else get in the way: partners, school, work, moving, emotions, friends, excuses, blah, blah, blah….

The first thing I’d abandon was myself and my training.  Not good. But it’s so much easier to give up on one’s self first than anyone else, right?  There’s definitely less guilt attached to it…. or shame.  But that’s part of the human journey, I think.  Finding out how to take care of ourselves while doing life, and keeping up with our adult responsibilities that come along with it.

Or sometimes I’ve just give up thinking I was totally insane to put myself through the rigours of training.  “What on earth was I thinking?!”

This time is different. No excuses!

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Long, snowy 16km run: Monday, February 15, 2016

This time is different, though. I know, I know… If you guessed that I’ve said this every time about my marathon training plan well, then, you’re right. But this time really IS different! I’m very much unemployed right now, no school, except for a few continuing ed classes at U of T, and no other significant responsibilities to think of other than taking care of me, myself, and I.

No excuses.  Seriously.  The number one reason why most people don’t run a marathon when they say that they want to is because of the massive amounts of time you must commit to it.  And it’s not really the running that takes up the most time, I’ve come to discover.  It’s the relentless grocery shopping (can’t eat out and eat crap food), the coming and going to massage, chiropractor, physiotherapy (…ever had a 2 inch needle drilled over and over into one of your raw muscles?  Try it – trust me!  It tickles!), cross training, yoga, pilates, tennis-balling,  foam rolling, crying. (Just kidding on that last one.  Well, maybe not actually).

Nothing but time

So this time, I’ve got nothing but time and I’m doing it.  As long as I can keep my left IT band happy and healthy, come hell or high water, I’m crossing that finish line after running 26.2 glorious (oops – I meant ‘brutal’) miles (42km) at the Toronto Goodlife Marathon on Sunday, May 1, 2016.

Now that my ‘long’ training runs are getting longer and longer, one thing that I’ve come to notice is that I really start to think about and recognize how much I learn about life from those winding miles.  Those lessons are what intend to share with you here.  And perhaps a few other nuggets of some of my favourite things along the way 🙂

See you on the trails and happy running, friends!

Days to Marathon: 74

 

 

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3 thoughts on “What on Earth was I Thinking?

  1. 5678mangez says:

    Best of luck to you on your training and actual marathon run. Kudos to you for trying again and especially training in the cold. Anyone who runs in this weather is committed and I have no doubt you will achieve your goal this time.

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